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Finally

Shai*
Jan 1, 2009
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After 4 years and 6 months....

:D

we call each other again, baby. :)

Keep the faith alive.

Shai*
Nov 30, 2008
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How can I keep the faith alive

when I can't even see you

I can't even talk to you.....

Is this faith just like the one I have with Jesus? I just have to believe even if I can't see Him?

in your love, my salvation lies.

Layla.
Nov 8, 2008
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in your love, my salvation lies

Things have gained some clarity. And am relishing every moment. But that means a lot of sacrifices.

Yeah, I said I was on blog leave, but I can't help but give you guys an update.

I am happy to see my best girlfriends from my former block section: Katzky, Carutweet, and Jezzaroo (of course, they're just nicknames).

The day I got my COR was the longest day of my life. I don't know to explain the reason, but it felt like it.

Criminal Procedure was a bit nerve-wracking. It's been long since I took Criminal Law 1 and 2, and we were made to remember every bit of it! But that serves as a challenge. I say, bring it on, baby.

It's been more than a year since I last posted here.

14 days

Shai*
Oct 31, 2008

9 days ago, I was blogging about my last visit to Baguio.

4 days ago, I left Baguio bitterly.

In two weeks, I saw him twice. In two weeks, I felt the bliss I longed for since the day he left.

and in two weeks, exactly 14 days from now, I'm seeing him again... :)

Isn't this a happy chapter in a long distance relationship book? It is, but the problem is, we are not in a relationship.

It felt good to actually see him again and this time, really get to talk to him and know about his life over there. Just like the good old times when he would ask me to go out of the house and be with him in the middle of the night. It also feels good that people around us want us to be together.

Sana maging kayo noh? Pagdadasal ko nga kayo.

Oo ako bahala. Lagi ko naman kayo sineset up eh.

Sana maulit muli..... Sana ikaw lagi kasama ngayon ni Gege paakyat ng Baguio every weekend...

Oo noh, pagdadasal ko yan. You deserve it.

Those words really can't help putting a smile on my face. Sana nga noh? Kasi magiging super saya ako nun. Lord, tara. Game. Di ko na siya iiwan this time. I won't let him go.......

Lord, can you hear me? :(

Hey hey

Shai*
Oct 22, 2008
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I just thought I missed blogging here. Vox is really convenient and tumblr is not really.....

The first sem of second year is over and I am just thankful that it is! To add to that, I had doubts in my mind if I would even reach a 3 for my QPI, since I fucked up my Accounting Finals and Theology Finals. When I checked my page in AISIS last night, I still didn't have grades in those two subjects so I just slept and decided to check them in the morning. When I checked a while ago, I saw a C+ next to Accounting. GOOD JOB! :) I quickly updated my excel computation of grades and if I got a C in Theo which is most likely, I'll get this QPI. Then I refreshed my page and saw a B beside Theology! HUH? ARE YOU SERIOUS?? :) :) :)) That was really surprising. But I am thankful. Really!

Anyway, the trip from Baguio made me think about things.. And I really don't know what happened to us. I mean, what happened to me. Why did I even let you go in the first place?

I looked back in my previous posts and found this..

Do you know the feeling when you're only relying on someone. And it all depends on his decision. I can fall hard if he let me go in an instant. And that's what I'm so scared about. That after another fall, I can't find the strength how to get up again.

Same thing that's happening right now...

Here's another one...

To add to my depression, I decided to just give up. Yes, the woman who proclaimed to the whole world that love can wait decided to stop waiting. I guess I still love him but I don't want things to be this way. I can't love him if he can't accept me fully. Unfair for me. Unfair for him if I become demanding. Well I guess, I still love him but I love him too much that I become angry with him because he can't love me right now. Right? And I don't want to waste our years of friendship on this. Maybe we're better of this way. And I'm sure that the love we have will never falter.

So here's to happiness and love. When can I have you both?

I decided to go to Baguio because I wanted to see him. After six months...... After six long months... He has changed already.. I saw my friends happy for us meeting again, but I never saw that happiness in him.. I know we don't have anything. No commitment, whatsoever.. But, I can't help thinking about what could have been.. Here I go again.

Ugh I can't conclude what I'm saying. I'm such a mess right now.

Moving again

Shai*
Aug 16, 2008
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I'm closing this blog temporarily... Moving back to my blogger.

NOT.

http://myshiningstar.tumblr.com

NOT.

http://whataboutdestiny.tumblr.com

Something to be thankful for..

Shai*
Aug 2, 2008
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Well my dad FINALLY is now a General.

I know, WOAH. :)

I know it's something to be thankful for but ever since that happened, total opposites happened. Constant shoutings. Constant fights. What's up with that?

UGH. THIS JUST SUCKS.

Now, is it something to be thankful for?

What's Up.

Shai*
Jul 25, 2008
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Hey. It's been a while since I blogged here.

My last post: I want to forget.

How can I forget when I got to talk to you on my birthday. Well I'm not really touched well I am. I mean, I'm happy that I got to talk to you but it was my friends that made a way.... I don't even know if you remembered at all. Then what's up with that song. I mean that song was about a girl really special to this guy. Am I that special to you? Don't come making me feel this way again. Cause it sucks to wait for your call when you are already talking to someone else.

Do I make sense here? I know this is stupid.

But besides that thought, I am okay. I am happy. :)

Why wouldn't I be happy? I've got the best college friends. AND I MEAN THE BEST!!! SHMAKLE knows what will make me happy. :) Although we have bitch fits sometimes, who cares. After the queen bitch has left, we're all good. :)

They made my birthday. :) We also have the list of men who make my world go crazy. The 19 men. :))

July has been so good to me. It's hard to say goodbye....

I want to forget....

Shai*
Jun 28, 2008
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I want to forget this feeling. I don't want to remember that I am killing myself day by day.

I'm letting go now.

Because clearly, you are not over her.

I'm not angry. I'm just sad.

I know this sadness will drift away. in time.

Maybe when I meet someone who could make me laugh the way you do. someone who can make my heart skip a beat everytime you're near or just everytime I feel your presence.

Until I meet him, I don't think I can forget you. No, no. I won't forget you for sure. But I want to forget the feelings I have for you.

Lord, help me let him go......

AYAW NA.

DI NA KAYA.........................................................

It means something

Shai*
Jun 18, 2008

Just an update with school and with other stuff.

It's Thursday tomorrow and every Atenean will shout HURRAH tomorrow for Friday, we don't have classes. :p Well, school's been okay. Even though I have lighter load this sem, it doesn't mean I can just lay-low on things.

You know the feeling when it's all you've ever wanted, then you're going to get it already, then you didn't get there. WAH. Vague, I know. So it's like this. Just last weekend, I was having this internal dilemma again... To try out or not to try out. You know, weighing the pros and cons. And then asking signs from Him... So yesterday, I got the sign so I texted Bea, my former teammate in CSA and the new captain of Ateneo if I can try out. Guess what.. Ateneo stopped recruiting already and they even cut off some players. Poor them. Me? I'm good! I was actually relieved when I found out about this. See, I think He really wanted to tell me that I wouldn't have enough time for other things. College is different. Yes, I know now.